My BIG Awakening to False Light Angel Teachers
My introduction to spirituality outside of my Catholic upbringing was through angels. My journey began by following Doreen Virtue in 2011. I loved all things angels even taking Doreen’s Angel Intuitive course and often gave readings to family and friends. I followed all the big teachers, bought oracle card decks and counted on that world to get me through the death of my parents.
It was deep into my process of discovering false light when I saw a disturbing post from angel teacher Kyle Gray. Kyle told people not to be afraid of the Aleister Crowley Thoth deck. Aleister Crowley was a known satanist. Thoth is a dark being posing as light. This was a double whammy of dark. I instantly unfollowed Kyle completely.
This led me to think, if Kyle Gray is dark than who else in the angel community is dark? Asking this question and staying open allowed me to see the truth of what was actually happening in the spirituality that surrounded me.
In this post, I describe my background in working with false light angel teachers, why the angel community is like a cult and how I got out of it.
Receiving Intuitive Readings
For 10 years, I received 1-on-1 angel readings from different intuitives. Some of the sessions also included hands on energy healing. One of the angel readers was Peroshini Naidoo, Doreen Virtue’s daughter-in-law.
These readings included a lot of talk about attracting the life I want. There was always a lot of blame and judgement. The guidance often said I was doing something wrong and I needed to learn a lesson in order to progress. They’d always dangle the carrot of my wildest dreams being on the brink of coming true.
There was a focus on the superficial. Each reader would say I would soon be meeting a partner and would have a lot of money. Peroshini regularly received “guidance” for me to rest by watching TV, shopping and drinking wine. Much of the guidance was designed to turn me away from others in my life and make me a victim.
There would be glimmers of truth in the readings. This is a common trick of the dark – throw in an element of truth to keep the person believing. Sometimes I would question one piece of guidance but then I’d think how another piece of guidance was so dead on. I’d be hooked into the entire thing, throwing away any of my own knowing.
The guidance was leading me down a path that was the exact opposite of the one I was meant to be on. Much of what would actually play out was in truth designed to keep me tied into the false light matrix.
Overall, I felt like I was sitting around waiting for my life to become this great thing. There was nothing happening that felt like growth or finding my path. And my life broke down in a lot of ways and what felt like a never-ending dark night of the soul.
In my last reading with Peroshini, she was abusive telling me all I had done wrong. I responded upset and questioning my belief in the angels. She dropped me immediately after a few years of working together and becoming close friends.
It turns out my questioning was my intuition letting me know that this guidance wasn’t from true angels.
Discovering False Light Angels
I decided readings weren’t for me and I’d go out on my own. Almost immediately, what I thought was “Archangel Michael”, swooped in to provide “guidance”.
There were many angel teachers and meditations I gravitated towards – included Diana Cooper, Tim Whild, and Steve Nobel. I spent hours doing their guided meditations, further tying me into the false light angel matrix. You can read more about my experiences with them here.
Archangel Michael, Metatron, Raphael, Sandalphone, Nathaniel, Jophiel and Ariel were some of the “angels” that often showed up in readings and guided meditations.
It is important to note that some of these angels are real but are heavily impersonated such as Archangel Michael. But some, such are Metatron, do not have a counterpart that is light. I believe Metatron and others to be dark imposters. I would run fast from anyone who says they work with Archangel Metatron.
As always, true light shines through and I awakened to the dark in spirituality and started to sense that something was off both with the “angels” I was connecting with and the meditations I was participating in.
Breaking Out of the Angel Community
A light went off for me when I heard Kyle Gray recommend that dark card deck. I decided to be really open. I said “if these people are really of the light, if these angels I’m working with are real than I will clearly know this”.
Most importantly I stayed open to the possibility that this was all a smoke in mirrors created by the dark. I had to get my ego out of the way and be open to the fact that my entire spiritual life may have been based on something that wasn’t real.
Guidance started to come in about particular teachers, including the 1-on-1 readers I worked with. I had to let go of each “teacher” one at a time and then a light would go off awakening me to the truth of another. Eventually I saw the truth in all of them. I unfollowed each and threw out my oracle cards.
It took more time to let go of the narrative “of the perfect life that was coming” that I still held onto. This story was created in the readings I had received from Peroshini.
Connecting with My Higher Self
We are all part of god/goddess/source whatever you want to call it. We have access to that part of ourselves, our higher self, any time we want. But if we believe that we don’t have access and have to give our power away to someone else (whether a person, an angel, etc) it becomes difficult to access our own light. That is the dark’s goal.
As I released angel teachings, the connection with my own light and higher self came in like a wave and increased over time. I was ready to do the real spiritual work and see what my purpose truly is.
But I couldn’t get to this point without being 100% willing to see all of this false light matrix for what it was.
I shifted my focus to tuning into what real guidance versus fake guidance felt like. And now I always check on each piece of guidance I receive. And yes, sometimes I do connect with angels but that connection feels much different than when I connected with the imposters.
The Cult of Angel Teachings
Once I realized what had happened with these teachers, some of whom I called friends, I felt betrayed. I thought to myself, how could I let it get this far? I think back to “guidance” and see how absurd it was. I also noticed how often after the high from the reading there was usually a crash. But just like with any good cult, I was being brainwashed to believe.
I realized there was a lot of dark energy that accompanied the readings and guided meditations. What I thought was healing energy work was in fact designed to slow me down, block my chakras, make me feel sick and cloud my judgement. It was designed to separate me from my higher self and my own intuitive knowing that I naturally had. This is the dark’s goal.
The “angel” and new age spiritual community is a thriving business- with books, oracle cards, courses, meditations and readings. This cult isn’t targeted at a select few like the Church of Scientology. This is the dark going after normal people. People who want to change their lives and the world. And it is especially targeted at lightworkers. Those of us who came here with a specific mission to drive out the dark on the planet and move into a higher state of being.
You’ll notice that few talk about the dark in the angel community. Isn’t that the perfect cover for the dark to hide in?
I Wouldn’t Have Believed Any of This
There’s a time where I would have thought this sounded nuts. Someone who assisted me in understanding the dark eluded to all of this early on in my journey. But I couldn’t believe it. And I couldn’t believe the depths of it. But I had to go through the process. I couldn’t immediately go from the 5-year-old that believed in Santa Clause to the 13-year-old who knows he doesn’t exist.
If you are deeply embedded in angel or new age spirituality, as I was, you probably won’t want to believe what I say. And that is ok. But at least allow yourself to stay open to the possibility of things not being what they seem.
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The Dark Teachings of Diana Cooper, Tim Whild and Steve Nobel
