Why I’m Writing About the Dark in Spirituality
The dark’s presence within spirituality is something I shied away from writing about because it goes against the grain. And let’s face it, it isn’t the most fun topic. But, having had many first-hand encounters with the dark and especially the dark posing as I light, I feel it is part of my purpose to shed light (pun intended) on this topic. Similar to “Defense Against the Dark Arts” classes in the Harry Potter series, I want lightworkers to be armed so they can recognize the dark. When I first encountered the false light, I didn’t understand it or know that it existed.
My Spiritual Background
I was raised Catholic and as a rebellious teenager stopped going to church because I found a lot of what was being said not to be the truth. Like so many that were turned off from organized religion, I was drawn to more of the metaphysical or new age spirituality.
I’m someone who lived and breathed spirituality and angels. Early into my dark night of the soul, I started to devour as much as I could on the subject. I took an angel intuitive certification course, I read numerous books on angels, manifesting, raising my vibration, and anything else that I could get my hands on. I purchased many oracle card decks, attended the latest online seminars and meditations. I had 1-on-1 sessions with multiple angel readers, energy healers and intuitive coaches. I sometimes gave readings myself. I did all the things we are told to do – be positive, visualize, focus on gratitude, allow the angels into my life. I also spent a lot of time dealing with and releasing lower emotions. I meditated regularly. I depended on these resources to make decisions in my life and was often given guidance that my future was bright and I’d live the life of my dreams.
In all the materials and teachings I came across, no one talked about the dark. And if they did the thought was that working with angels helped you rise above that. I was living in a world of denial that was echoed by all spiritual teachings I came across.
Encountering False Light Angels
After the death of my parents, I no longer resonated with getting angel readings and felt less of a desire to utilize spiritual resources. I felt it was time to explore things on my own. I had done all the work I was told to do and things still weren’t lining up for me. Something just felt off and I didn’t totally understand what it was.
It was at this time where I started to feel closer to “Archangel Michael”. He’d speak to me, offering comfort and assistance as I navigated life’s challenges. Other guides and angels would also come in but Michael was the main one I worked with.
A few months later, a new guide appeared and offered assistance with my career telling me I’d be a teacher. “Archangel Michael” was with me and told me this guide was a friend. Over the coming weeks, many other guides and angels came in. They said, that I had now raised my vibration and was closer to them so that is why I could see and hear them more clearly. They would do work to help me clear my chakras and energy field (similar to what I had done in meditations channeled by other teachers). They would try to make things light and fun as a way of distracting me from seeing who they really were. These “angels” told me I was a creator and was bringing new energies onto the planet. And that as a reward for that, and for all the hard work I had done, that I would have all the things I wanted in life. I was told I had finally found my purpose and was ascending.
Even though this all sounded good, things started to feel off to me. My body hurt and my chakras felt worse, not better. There was a deep feeling of separation. I was feeling that I was being energetically attacked. I didn’t feel that this is how the life of my dreams should be playing out. But then I’d think that so much of what was being said by these “angels” echoed the messages I’d been hearing in the spiritual community for so long.
I felt confused and low. It was clear that the beings surrounding me were not the angels they pretended to be. I started to be attacked more frequently in my energy field and in my dreams. I’d have nightmares about things like opioids and mass shootings.
I searched and searched among the teachings I had spent so much time with, thinking I must have missed something, but no one was talking about the dark or false light.
I sought the help of two intuitives I knew. There was a lot of judgement and blaming me from both of these “healers.” They each said I had low self-worth and that is why it was happening. One, who said she works closely with “Archangel Metatron”, basically just told me these angel impersonators were gone. That I was going to have the life of my dreams but I needed to stop expecting the worst out of life. I felt awful after these sessions and the attacks by the dark only got worse.
I felt betrayed by the angels and by god and almost left my spiritual path numerous times(which was the ultimate goal of the dark). I’d vacillate between giving up to feeling like there must be a way to get out of this.
On one particularly low day while driving, I noticed a hawk on a telephone poll alongside the road. The next thing I knew the hawk swooped down and flew right in front of my windshield. I knew this was a sign not to give up. I didn’t know how I was going to get through this but I knew that somehow I would. Hawks continued to show up for me every time I reached my lowest point.
I then discovered some YouTube meditations aimed at clearing out the dark. I spent weeks working with these for hours a day, even sleeping to them and still didn’t notice much difference. The dark was as relentless as ever. And I later learned these meditations were actually doing more harm than good.
Understanding False Light
Finally, I was guided to someone who was able to help me. She had years of experience of seeing the dark and focused on connecting with one’s higher self to get them messages. She validated my suspicions that all these “angels” and “guides” were dark posing as light. And that some of the healers and teachers I was working with were connecting with the dark as well.
My higher self was clear that I was being attacked to stop me from my purpose. This opened up a whole new world for me and was the beginning of understanding my path and purpose.
The dark is going after lightworkers in order to stop us from creating a new earth. No one, no matter how “spiritual” or advanced someone may be, is immune to this. But with work and through healing of trauma we create true boundaries of protection using our own light.
Becoming My Own Guru
Over time, I came to understand the level of hijacking by the dark within the new age spiritual community. Archangel Michael is one of the more impersonated angels. Some of the “angels” who are channeled aren’t even real. Many ascended masters and guides such as Mother Mary, Jesus, and star beings are also heavily impersonated. With much of the focus on taking us away from our own intuitions and the guidance of our soul.
While facing the dark was the hardest thing I’ve done, their attacks backfired because they pushed me to reclaim my own light and follow my purpose. I now work directly with my higher self and other guides that support me such as Mother Mary.
I look to my soul for guidance, not to the latest trendy spiritual resource or to an intuitive healer. I am my own guru.
The dark was right about two things – I am a creator and bring new energies onto the planet via sacred geometry grid work. And I am a teacher and leader in this war against the dark.
The dark still tries to stop me and I have become well versed at spotting their antics. I have developed strategies to handle their attacks and attempts at manipulating me to follow a false light path. I continue to process and heal so that I become more difficult to attack.
I don’t share my story to scare you or to cause fear, but so that you can be aware. After I first encountered it – I felt a little bit like I was missing a huge course that should have been covered the first day.
I am in the process of putting together a number of resources to assist lightworkers. My hope is that the challenges I faced will help others learn to recognize false light and learn how to defend themselves against attackes.
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